The pain of no talent and little time

I've been ruminating on making a video game for years, a mix of different aspects that I like about competitive shooter games. I just don't have the freakin' time to do anything about it! And when I do I'm bone tired after my workweek so I just want to chill. It sucks. I wish I still had the energy and time I had 5 years ago when I was learning to play competitive games. Although, who knows if I would've even had these ideas if it weren't for the fact I played the games? I guess its something at only goes one way, so I can't complain. Maybe one day I'll get the time.