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i don't understand why i continue to crave your approval, all i want is to be seen by you. i need you to know that i am alive.   

every thing i've written over the past 9 months has been about you, and almost every twitter post i've made exists purely for your entertainment. ironically enough, i came back to spacehey so that you wont read a word that i say anymore, but i still cant help it, i wish you were here. i wish that i could see the light behind your eyes fading as you read these posts, i hope that these words make you feel as lonely as you made me feel for all this time.

i have such mixed feelings about you though. i need you to hurt i want to see you suffer, but as soon as i do all i want is to be there for you. whenever you say some stupid shit like "yearning and regretting" or "i need to stop being so lonely" yeah, i'm mad. but i just wish i could be there for you. i wish that i could do something, anything to make you feel loved again. its just not my place to say those things to you anymore though, it wouldn't be right.