its friday, im in love.

its not friday, actually. today is tuesday, july 23th 2024 (slashs 59th birthday, btw. im listening to gnr while writing this), but i am in love. i mean, not really in love, but i had never fell this hard for anyone. he works out at the same gym as me, and he is just so fucking handsome. tall, long hair, strong, masculine. exactly my type. i dreamed of him two times. on the first dream, he said i was cute and he was so shy, my god. on the second one, which was last night, i dreamed he had a girlfriend, so it wasnt really good. but oh my god, he is just so perfect. i think about this mf all the time. its a shame i will never talk to him. he could be my husband. yesterday i saw him with a charlie brown jr tshirt, so when i got home i searched for all their love songs, and ive been listening to it quite s lot since then. its good to have something that reminds me of him. now im a even bigger fan. i think he intentionally looked at me while i was doing leg curls, and im sure he was looking for me when he stuck his head out into the mobility room. i know, bc i do the same, searching for him. i just feel its mutual. but we know i aint never taking action. so its gonna forever be nothing but a gymcrush.

now, talking abt slashs birthday, i listened a not to gnr today, even when i was doing cardio and, damn, i really need to go back to listen to those motherfuckers. and i forgot how much i fucking love slash. i remember two years ago, when i was just getting into to rock music, and i would get so high on his solos. i would listen to november rain and wonder how bitch can make the note curves (then i found out what a bending is). and i will confess, november rain still gets me till this day. seems it gets even better with time. the first two solos are the most beautiful weeps ive ever heard, and then the third is such a plot twist. it makes me wanna break everything around me. i will go crazy when i learn how to play all this shit. btw, slash was the guy who made me wanna learn how to play guitar, and im forever thankfull for that. i just wanted to do what he did, with the passion he had, and now im on my way. he is part of the most important base of the artist me. i love heavy stuff but, also bc of him, i will never stop being amazed by sentimental stuff. so, happy birthday, man, i wish you have the greatest life you can, for the longest you can. like, seriously, dont ever die. thanks for existing, thanks for everything and, in the most hardcore fanboy way, i fucking love you.