oh shit.

guys im FREAKING the fuck out my mum messaged me when i woke up saying that she needs to take all my devices to check if nortons on them becuase i stayed up late last night and took a shower a bit late and she thinks norton (restrictions) isnt working. the thing is i wiped my laptop and and phone and ive found alternate ways to use my stuff, and ever since hells week ive been super scared of them becuase they went through everything and i also hate being watched. i said to her that i just got distracted listening to music and i was sorry, and that norton sometimes lags behind the time you send becuase it needs an update. she says she "needs to look but shes not feeling well" so i pray, pray to GOD that shes just mad today and she'll forget tommorow. jesus christ, she was mad at my lil bro yesterday why didnt i think of that last night????? fuck fuck fuck, i actually feel sick rn from how scared i am. ive spent the last 4 months trying to break down all the restrictions and i cant redo the damage. if she gathers enough energy to snoop through my laptop and other stuff im gonna take precautions just in case. i unplugged my laptop so that it would die, after school ends im gonna switch to the account with norton on it on my school laptop, i hid my phone in my pillow. i could be in super deep shit if im not careful. ugh god, i wanna cry. i still have 3 and 1/2 years until im an adult, how can i even do this? my brother punched a mirror this morning and everyones moved past it. how is that normal in my household????

god, i dont know. but i need to leave one day.