Still no clue

Date: 18 juni 2024 

I know that me rejecting him was the right choice, but I still like him a lot. I already talked abt how I don't know when I'm "in love" and I still have no clue. I know I would dislike seeing him with someone else, which is prolly not a very nice thing to say. I was attracted to him before, and then when we were dating-ish he acted weird so I rejected him to make things normal again. But I didn't reject him cs I don't have feelings for him, I do. I just don't know if my feelings are enough. On the date he described me as some sort of angel and I couldn't do the same for him. He said so many kind things and I just couldn't say them back. Not bcs he's not those things, I just can't say it. I think of myself as a pretty confident person but when he said all those things I just shut down. I hope I'll be able to ask him out at some point, for now I'll just stay friends with him. And if he does end up in a relationship with someone else, I guess it wasn't meant to be. Or atleast that's what I will tell myself. 

- Elliot