The past !!

Okay so I found this picture on pinterest and it reminded me that everything from my past is like, I don't remember a lot from my childhood, ig that's a trauma response BUT i also don't rememeber like some things i have done recently, it just feels like everything is melting together and its quite hard for me to point out when exactly i did some things.

However some things i remember perfectly fine, its weird.

Well I might as well write some stories here lol

So when I was younger in kindergarden, I was a very shy and quiet kid, always playing alone until one girl came up to me once and we just became friends, she was quite a bad influence even in kindergarden tho, she was kind of a bully and i was the one who would follow her around everywhere. Then later on in life she started drinking and other things that someone that young should not have done, i think she was like 12-13 when she first started, it's quite sad to think about honestly. But she is such an amazing person and I will never forget her as long as that is up to me, even if she forgets me lol.

I remember once my classmates from my old school went in a trip where i didn't go to and there were bedbugs in that place and i was so glad i didn't go. To be honest i never really felt completely a part of that class, not the way i do in the school i go to now. They all seemed to dislike me, even if they didn't show it directly. But maybe it was just my overthinking, I used to struggle a lot with my mental heath during the time i went to that school so it probably was just me overthinking everything lmao.

I remember when I got a gf for the first time ever and it was so amazing and one day we went on a little date at 4 a.m lmao and she got cold so i gave her a blanket i carried with me and ah it was just so adorable. Now we have broken up obviously but Its nice to know that atleast I had fun during the time i dated her. Now everything feels so serious, back then it was just us trying out something new and having fun with it. Ofcourse sometimes things need to be serious too but yk.

Anyway whoever's reading this i hope you have an amazing rest of your life!!