impending ???????

its not quite doom but i feel a strong presence of change around the corner, like its crawling up my throat and sitting behind my eyes. it dosnt feel neccessarily bad, but its definetly making me nervous. 

i guess thats it. thats kinda the whole post. things are about to change, hell they already have. re: my blog post from the other day, about feeling like life just started a whole different spinoff show. the game shop finally opened today. the opening was super awesome, they made like 3x the amount they expected to for the first day, and im really happy for my buddy. its such a great fit for him there, and i like that we have a little work community together now inside our friend group. the other guy got fired at my work so now its just me and my friend. and even tho were all together on and off all day, we still get everyone together once were off. 

im really greatful for what i have.

but anyway, its been a satisfyingly long day, like most recently. the last two weeks have gone by surprisingly slow and im greatful for it. i took a moment to stand back in my room just now before i hopped onto my laptop to see what i missed on the interwebs today, once everything was still, and i could just tune into me, thats where i felt that presence of change. 

i think im ready. im still terrified dont get me wrong, i think i always am. about everything. but im gonna do it scared. 

- angel blood is hopeful