something i hate

Sitting around being miserable does definitely ruin your own life for you and not doing things mean theyll never get done. i know that and struggle to live that, this i know. but nothing pisses me off more than someone whos using their parents money and getting help from their parents trying to rail on me ab how i need to "stop being lazy" or telling me how easy something is to do.  like my license. i dont have it and people whos parents pay their insurance, paid for their car, put them through driving school and let them drive their car, LITERALLY TAUGHT THEM TO DRIVE, telling me how easy it is and how i need to get it done pisses me off. a lot. because whos paying for it??? you think i wanna put probably like 400$ dollars in insurance 200 in gas into a probably shitty car that cost me a full paycheck every month for the rest of my life while subconiously knowing its all for fucking nothing cus its killing the planet that i have no future on as it is. Not to mention i dont think im someone who should be trusted to drive a 100 ton vehicle that needs you to be fully aware and quick to react. sorry im fucking stupid and have horrible anxiety and impulsive thoughts that tend to distract and upset me, two things you never want to be while driving. but thats besides my point. 

its so jarring to me!!! because its never been that easy shit like that costs money!!! MONEY AND TIME. and its always the ones with more than one active parent. sorry that my dad doesnt want to drop nearly a thousand dollars on me to drive when his own car is falling to pieces but he cant get the title for it because he had to impromptu move to the otherside of the country and both of the states are STUPID so he cant sell it, cant even get new tags, and frankly doesnt want to try and get a new car, at least not in this moment.