Toxic

Your grip on me is intoxicating

Like a powerful drug

You consume my thoughts

And send my heart racing

I struggle to focus on anything else

But your love is a double-edged sword

It cuts deep into my heart

I can't help but create illusions

Where your affection doesn't cause pain

You're like a drug, but I can't deny

The harm you bring, it's undeniable

You're toxic for me, yet here I am

By your side, slowly withering away

Blinded by a distorted image of you

Why does your love hurt so much?

You say you love me, but do you really mean it?

Damn you and your love, it's unbearable

And yet, I'm still here, unable to break free

Addiction is a cruel master

Please, I beg of you, leave me be

What was I thinking, believing it was love?

You were just using me

Molding me into your perfect creation

But I could never be that flawless

I despise you, truly

I dreamt of a home and a family

Yet you left me questioning if our love was just a facade created by you.

an updated version of one of my old poems  called "Addictive"