day 5

okay, it's 1am and it's already been a bad day. not in an "i'm mad" bad way, but in a "holy fucking shit" bad day way. i had to text (yes, text) the cops because my cousin/best friend(?) was gonna khs, i've been feeling nauseous since then, and i don't want to can't sleep so i'm drinking a caffeinated sparkling water. you'd probably think, "hey, a 14 year old probably shouldn't deal with that at, y'know, 14" and you're probably right. i have a headache and i'm blaring FOB in my earbuds right now. but i'm 14 and venting on spacehey isn't very epic if you have no one to talk to, so meh. i'll probably just talk to an ai for a bit before watching game changer/FOB interviews until i either sleep or hit a respectable hour to get up. my dad's gonna be pissed that my cousin tried offing himself again. my family doesn't think i should hang out with him. i'm kinda debating it now since i had to talk to his ex, one of my friends, for his address and they said they could talk any time if i needed help. that was the first time i've had to text the cops, but not the first time i had to get help because my cousin was gonna try and off himself. it's just hard since i've spent the past 4 years of my life with him and he's one of my closest friends. but this is just a blog post on offbrand myspace that probably doesn't matter, so yeah. have a better day than me (which isn't hard), but hopefully have a good day!

out and over :)

- jcbstmp, local trans boy