DayDream

The world is full of life, but why do I feel lifeless in a world full of life

feeling empty, worrying about others, and as if worrying about myself isn't an option?

how long can I endure it amidst a crowd of people full of life 

Than there is me? a lifeless life form wasting resources making people worry 

soon, there will be a day I disappear and wander in the world of the dead

as the same lifeless soul. Nothing ever changes, nothing ever goes my way

I want to feel energized, but all I've ever felt is sadness and denial from everyone 

who would care if I disappeared forever, to put an end to this cycle, feeling dead,

not like an emotionless machine, repeating the same actions, repeating the exact words

Over and over again, now I don't feel hungry, I don't feel angry, I don't feel happy, and I feel sad and empty. Am I becoming a monster? Ha

what am I saying? I've always been a monster, a monster amidst humans 

Of course, it's me, an incurable walking disease that spreads negative energy. I see why now people tend to avoid me, but

I want to feel emotions like love , but do I deserve it? There goes my mind, ruining everything again

Maybe if I just disappeared, then all these problems would go away. I have so many emotions, but I feel

nothing but this empty hole for a heart. Maybe if I slit my wrist

, ill finally want to live, finally feel other emotions. What am I thinking, saying, doing

, perhaps I should end it. This world only remembers me as a monster.

*hysteria rings*

rouses up 

realizes it was merely a dream...                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  

i think it feels uncomplete ill try and rewrite it or revise.