the spirit is willing.

...............................................but the flesh is weak.

I've just been living life. it was my break week after my midterms and I was just trying to recuperate and get some rest & relaxation before the rest of my semester starts tomorrow. also happy canada day, fireworks are going nuts outside as I typed this.

what have I been up to.. well, smoked a ton of weed, I've probably spent like $200 on weed the past 2 months.. this is why we don't let people with addiction running in their family have fun things.

listened to the e album by ecco2k in full last night (i'd been listening to selected tracks from it all week though) and that was such a transformative experience. i just had to tattoo the "e" (under the youtube link) on me so now it's on my middle finger. where I previously had the number "75" in honor of my mother's birth year, but I ended up taking a razor and slicing it off. but it left traces so I'm glad I covered it with the e. :)

I'm going to tattoo "the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak" at some point, probably tonight or this week, we'll see.

i have so many tattoos I meant to get after I turned 18,  but got freaked out by having to go along so I've put it off forever now. i think something I want to get used to is doing things in public alone. don't get me wrong, I like doing stuff on my own, but I miss having friends to do things with. 

it's hard for me to make friends, I think there may be something offputting about me that people are picking up and I'm just not seeing. not to mention the process is kind of embarrassing when you think about it too long. i do not even know how to go about all of that, so I'll ignore it as usual!

i do hope everyone's been having a good time, and I hope the new week treats you well. 

here's what I listened to while typing this; draingang, liz harris aka grouper, and SALEM saved me this week.