turning 18

The first ever entry I made here I was talking about turning 17 in about a month and being worried about senior year and going to university abroad.

I just turned 18 two days ago and I graduated high school a little over two weeks ago. I had forgotten about this website to be honest, I got too busy with school and with life in general, I didn't even have time to sit down and watch shows I was interested in or keep up with any piece of media, too much was going through my mind. 

But now I've been two weeks free from school and it feels bittersweet. I'm glad to have graduated high school and to have achieved such an important milestone in my life and that I'll be off to university in less than a month. But it feels so weird to me. For the last six years of my life I've had my holidays anticipating the next school year, praying that I'll be put in the same classes as my friends, dreading having to put up with another year of chemistry lessons, and not thinking much of the same people I've passed by everyday for years. But now it's not like that anymore. I won't have to put on my uniform, my school shoes and socks, no more meeting friends in the cafeteria, no more dreaded flag ceremonies in the burning hot sun. 

I never thought I'd think of these things when I finally graduated, I thought I'd recall the bigger events that occurred throughout high school, but instead I find myself looking back at mundane activities that became part of my routine. A lot has happened since that first entry; I made friends, lost friends, fell in love, and was heartbroken as well. I had been anticipating going to University ever since I was 14, and now I'm 18 about to leave my whole family behind and separating with my closest friends and I find it hard falling asleep every night knowing all of this. 

I'm excited and so scared at the same time. I'm technically not even going to university, I'm doing college first. Hopefully it all works out in the end.