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it's been a while since i've updated
i'm pretty sure i don't have best friends anymore which sucks, but also it was a good lesson for me to learn that everything is temporary and i will be hurt no matter what i do and to never trust anyone fully
i am hurt that this experience completely flipped my life upside-down to the point where i cannot even function independently anymore, however i am grateful that it led me onto a path of enlightenment, and learning detachment. it's hard to learn that this world is so cruel. and i wish i was still young and naive and still believed in the world. i hope i will never be able to relive this type of visceral, heart-wrenching pain again
but i probably will
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Hey sweetie, let's start by getting you a big hug <3
I understand how viscerally painful it is to be cut down & failed by people who at one time you would've counted on the most. In a way you're basically grieving and you've been hurt so your brain wants to protect you from being hurt again. And that makes the world feel scary, and cruel, and you absolutely don't deserve to have been to made to have these feelings.
My whole life I've seen what you do, that feeling that everything can taken from you, and while nobody can just say magic words to convince it's not true, it doesn't have to be something to live in fear of! If everything is temporary, then so must your hurt, and sadness, and fright!! You wrote that you wish - in part - that you were still young, but goodness gracious you are!! I wish I was still as young as you, and people tell me they wish they were still as young as me. There's so many things ahead of you, and yes that means you will feel hurt again, but 100 times as often you'll feel happiness, and pride, and comfort, and the beauty of being human.
And even in the face of all that, you possess things which really do last forever. You're a genius in so many areas, you have unkillable passion and infinite love, and there are people who would always choose to hold on to you, even if you haven't grabbed them yet. I know I most certainly would!!
Always keep being you, Chennie, because you're the person most worth being.
''but 100 times as often you'll feel happiness, and pride, and comfort, and the beauty of being human.''
this whole reply really means a lot to me <3 thank you so much
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