Anxiety Rambles

I take a lot of naps, I know my health isn't that great and I stress myself out so much everyday that every time I come back home from work or school I'm exhausted. I've started getting this weird symptom lately with my anxiety where it feels like my brain isn't getting enough oxygen. And so then I freak myself out that maybe I'm dying this time. But clearly I haven't died soooo I must be actually fine. Seriously just thankful that I'm not getting the symptom anymore where it feels like I'm on a cruise ship in rough waters. I really need to get a new therapist because I lost my last one due to an insurance change and I'm still really sad about it. She was amazing. And I have medication anxiety so I know if I am able to take any med consistently it will be a miracle lol. This is such a weird word vomit but I just have been having a lot of thoughts and I don't have a productive place to put it.