Everything was Fine

Went out to meet my old friends, and everything was fine. I had a really good time. I pushed through the anxiety and it was a lot of fun! I laughed so hard I cried several times. Also the cider was absolutely delightful there. I'm just glad I made myself go anyways. It's hard to push through anxiety for me, going out has gotten harder and harder to do. I wish I could turn it off because I so badly want to be able to just... go do things. Without freaking the absolute fuck out. Maybe one day. But today I guess I'll still be stuck without therapy or meds lol. Oh well.