I want to love

I want to love.

i want to heal. i want to smile. 

i want to laugh. and make other people laugh.

i want to smile. To make myself smile.

i want. i want so much.

i want to love. i want to fill my heart with love.

i want to enjoy my food. i want to enjoy my hobbies. i want to enjoy making my art. i want to enjoy living.

i want to fill it all with love and share it to everyone 

i want my food to be eaten, my hobbies to be shared, my art to be seen. i want my life to be lived.

and i want to look at myself 

and other people 

and i want to think good things.

about them, about me, about me and them and the world around us.

i want to love. 

i want my mind to rest. and i want the first thing I see when i wake up is met with kindness and love 

i want to forgive myself and others. 

i want to be kind by forgiving, and by not forgiving.

i want to show fairness, especially to those wronged.

i want to be kind.

i want to be kind to everyone even if they are not as kind to me.

i want to know that you don't need to do anything to earn it.

only that you're able to lose it.

i want to carry my love with respect and with sincerity.

and if it's not sincere, it soon will be.

i want to show that love.

i want my love to be known. 

i don't just want to. i need to.

to love is a necessity.

I need to. 

and soon i won't need to need as much. 

because i will be.