Reflection

Wanting to write again;

I got home less than an hour ago I was on a trip visiting my best friend in a different state. I had a lot of fun and did a lot of reflecting. Nothing life changing or disclosing, just listening to my constant thoughts. 

I really missed home. I missed my family a lot. I'm glad I can say that. My sister is growing into such a cool person. And my brother is trying his best, and I can really see that. Honestly when I think about it, I'm still really scared to lose him. Seeing him down makes me really apprehensive. 

I love home cooked meals. That's what I missed about my mom; her comfort. When we got home and I was able to sit beside her, alone, I just wanted to start crying for some reason. Being with my young and happy friend really showed me how much can change in someones mind as they get older. Just sitting next to my mother really shows how much I'm bottling up. 

I didn't cry, and I don't think I can right now. I'm going to keep focusing on other things. I'm gonna focus on ,y current relationships with people and stop being so childish about my past. My friend said that while the past still matters we shouldn't let it linger in our heads, we can only learn from it in the present and prepare for the future.

Taking my time while writing is nice. All the disorganized emotions I would write never made sense to me after I finished writing but I would still post it in the heat of my mind. 

OK now, goodbye for a bit

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