Fuck tarot readings

Okay I don't actually feel that way about tarot readings, but I kind of had a phase of tarot and astrology and thought I had some sort of spiritual awakening, when in reality I was trying so hard to make sense of what I felt about a person. I'm not gonna talk about my work crush again because honestly even I'm getting tired of it, but I also was connecting some of those readings to my life and thought some big change in my life was coming. Spoiler alert, I'm still the same, and if anything, I've kind of gotten worse. For one, I've been smoking weed every day since I can't remember. I tried not to think about it much or not let it get to me, but it does affect me. I have an addictive gene that's ran in my family for a long time, my mom was the first to really break that pattern, but smoking weed kind of reignited that gene? I don't know if that makes any sense. But every time I'd wake up after smoking all night, I'd feel like shit. I always promised myself not to smoke again the next day, but the minute I'd come back from work I grab my stiizy. I don't want to do that anymore. So, I didn't get high yesterday and I was actually able to fall asleep easily. That's why I say fuck tarot reading. They told me I was on the right track and I was doing everything right, and I wasn't. Hopefully I will be soon, I don't expect me suddenly not smoking weed as often will really change much, but it's done more than Co-star has lol.