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I don't fucking know. I just know that I want to be successful to be pretty and to be loved by people i want to be better but I do not see myself actually being that personn I am so negative right now and I do not want that but I am just s confused I feel like I am not changing I am still the same and I cannot have that I dont want to waste another year but I am doing nothing. I am so confused. I tried to seek professional help from a psychologist but throughout I just felt that I am more deserving to be the one giving out the therapy more than her because I just knew what to say to someone that has my case better than her. idont knoww. I just want to change. I want to disappear. long enough for people to forget this version of me. long enough for them to forget that when they were to see that I've changed, they won't associate me with this person that I am right now and the person that I was. I want to be completely different. Unrecognizable physically and mentally and my personality and all of that. Different. I just need to collect my thoughts I guess.
I really don't know what I want to become
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G-man Jr
idk if this helps but personally i dont think there's that much of a rush to figure out what you wanna become. There's a lot of pressure put on you to have that figured out, sometimes even before you're an adult! But i feel like opportunities don't always come that early for everyone, and its not like you can really do much about it. I think all you can really focus on is finding happiness, rather then trying to become something. but what do i know im jsut some idiot on the internet shrug
Hello! Sorry just logged in again today. I think you're right, I am rushing. I just want to know immediately so I can do things to get to what I want but the problem is I do not know it. But I haven't tried everything yet and maybe what I haven't tried is whats for me and I just need to be patient. plus this rushing is just making me anxious. Thanks for your comment! it gave me a new perspective on this.
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