Entry #029 - I'm... Fine

Oops, I accidentally skipped my blog entry for the month of May.

My previous entry showcased the beginning stages of my departure from my last job. Shockingly, that whole endeavor went pretty smoothly. I left on good terms with my former employer & coworkers, and we have remained friends. We still keep in touch and spend time together on weekends when we're able. All is well.

My new job welcomed me (back) with open arms. I think I may have forgotten to mention that I've returned to an old job that I had a few years ago. My supervisors praise me. My coworkers are kind to me. I'm starting to make new friends. I've reconnected with some older friends. Best of all, I have health insurance again! I've been getting caught up on my medical crap throughout the past month. 

Things started out rough at the new job because I injured my knee on week #2, but I've mostly recovered from that. The situation was embarrassing because I missed numerous days of work in order to heal, and it's not a good look to have shitty attendance immediately after getting hired. It was also a total reality check when it comes to the decaying state of my flesh prison. My joints are not getting any younger or stronger... I must move more slowly and cautiously than I used to. 

Aside from things going mostly well at the new job, other areas of my life have been lacking. Due to my new work schedule, I am no longer able to attend the bi-monthly group therapy classes that I really benefited from. There are more things that are less than favorable occurring in my life right now, but they're too private to spew online. Mostly I'm just tired. Physically, mentally, spiritually, socially, whatever. Just tired. 

Despite this, I'm making a solid effort at reading more books, and I'm hoping it'll keep me grounded. It's hard to describe to those who are unfamiliar, but I've always had trouble keeping my spirit attached to my body. You'd never guess it, based on my fatigued and low-energy demeanor, but I'm very high-strung and aloof in terms of my brain and/or spirit being all over the fucking place at any given time. Always an overthinker. Even my local Reiki master noticed this about me when I visited her for my knee injury. 

It's finally sunny and warm out, so I'm trying to ground outside and read my ever-growing pile of books. I recently finished a couple of unicorn books, and now I'm working through a book about the Anunnaki, Sumerian gods, extraterrestrial DNA, and the origins of humanity. It's a whole lot of scientific "rabbit hole" information packed into a rather small paperback book. At least it keeps me from doom-scrolling on my phone too much. 

Oh, and I've also gotten back into DIY-ing clothing! Customizing clothes is very cathartic to me, and I have newfound motivation to get creative now that I no longer have a "work uniform" to conform to. 

It's safe to say that my mental state has VASTLY improved since I quit my customer service job. Things aren't perfect right now, but I'm still doing much better than I was earlier this year.

I'm tired after working overtime, though, so I'm ending it here. G'night.