slight body horror tw

i just had this very energetic manic episode and then it went down and up again and then i sat down and started drawing because i felt a sudden burst of inspiration and then i started drawing and then i went to shower and felt nostalgic for some reason so then i continued drawing rejected draft 1 and took the sketch to a new canvas (was supposed to be a random fullbod, and instead of the bare bones it was supposed to be sewed?? up with ribbon but it covered the bones and i didnt like it anymore) and this turned out ... i kind of like it im not sure how to explain this but this is how i feel after that manic episode but im not sure why i dont even look like that my hair isnt long i dont have a mole like that it feels like me but also doesnt at the same time