heaven

tw: everything involving junko furuta

if there is an afterlife, i want to meet her. even though we wouldnt speak the same language, all i want to do if hug that poor girl. she was a beautiful kind poor soul, who deserved nothing that happened to her. she experienced the deepest darkest pits of humanity, she never got justice. ive never wanted humans to die more then the men who killed her. those men deserve eternal punishment, i want them to suffer until the end of their lives just like they did to her. i want them to experience worse. i want them dead. humans like those do not deserve life. the police are monsters too, they didnt care. i just want to know shes not suffering anymore, and that someone cares. i want her to know she was beautiful, i want to know if she can run around and walk like she could before she died. i want to know if she has anyone to talk to, that she isnt silenced. that she is beautiful, and a fighter. i mean, how strong do you have to be to be almost burned to death twice and still have the power to live? the strongest person i know, thats for sure. and the bravest, most determined girl ive ever heard of. she deserved freedom, i hope she has space in heaven. i hope she has a home, i hope she can wear her favourite clothes in heaven. i hope shes okay, even if i never knew her. even if its been 35 years since she died.

i want to hug her, give her a letter. if i say that shes brave and that im so sorry for what happened even if she doesnt exactly understand she gets the idea. 

i hope heaven is real, even if god isnt.