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cw: vent

So like, ya girl has been hallucinating like crazy and it's kinda making everything difficult, I'm doing so much worse in school, I have to put all my energy into work so that I can afford to not rely on my parents.

I convinced my mum to take me to a gp to talk about things but idk when that's gonna be

every night I see the scariest shit and it terrifies me and then the adrenaline triggers whatever the fuck is going on with my blood and makes me faint and fuck I need help so bad.

I can't tell what's real anymore it feels like I'm living in two different realities and I don't have any energy anymore.