mommy

I want to cry so fucking hard right now, im so fucking tired and i miss you, i loved you. Am I doomed to fuck up every relationship i've made in my life? This morning i was at lunch and crossed a bunch of different people i used to know closely and it was like i was never there, in retrospect i guess i never made any real connections with anyone. I was never here.

I've been thinking about it more than ever lately, i can see myself doing it and i dont care anymore about the effect ill leave because i know its going to be either null or positive, everyone had enough of my shit anyway. 

You never felt anything close to what i felt for you towards me, im glad cause reading all of this is making me cringe and so i hope you have it better even though i never really knew you.