You don't really know until you've lost it

Haven't been on here in a while but I figured I should share. Recently someone very close to me who've I've grown attached to was just erased from my life. Poof. Gone. Without a goodbye. Although I've dealt with death before, there's a lingering emptiness inside of me that I can't seem to fill. Worst part is, I just realized how happy this person made me. How badly I want to see them again because the feelings they gave me were stronger than what anyone else has ever delivered.

These things take time.

And although I understand that, this isn't something I'm used to either. I haven't cried yet or done anything really. It's just been... empty. 

I know that once I finally graduate within a few days I'll miss them even more. There's not a cure for this, but I hope whoever is in the same situation or maybe even about to be, all my love. It's hard. It really is. And I'm glad to have people around to help pick me up at times. Again.

These things take time. 

And within time maybe I'll really understand how strong I am for enduring this.