"im not crazy" i say while being crazy

im so fucking nuts tbh. i wish i could ppinpoint why and where im not right but its hard to see it in myself. i get told all the time backhanded comments like "i love the way you think" or some version of "i wish i could understand your brain" and its always when im trying to be honest and speak my mind. everytime people do shit like that it basically cements in my mind that im different and there is something wrong with me, and like i know, but i wish i wasnt treated like a ticking time bomb. maybe i just need to stop making people feel like i am one.