Day 136 of playing guitar because i wanna be like Bocchi

Got nothing done! Feels bad! In a hurry again!

• Physics!
• Oh Dorian! 
• Anyone can play guitar!
• Art done! Finally free!
• He's... my boy!
• Recommendation of the day!

Errrmm akshually... you wrote chemistry... yeah, I know, the point is, I'm sick! Cough cough.. I have a cold and it's only gotten worse. I had to write a 3 hour paper like this! It was torturous BUT! My science teacher came in before the test to put me at ease or us, as a group or something but we all know she wanted to talk to me, her best student! (Who is on the brink of failing science). Maybe not best but favorite! Anyway, the test absolutely demolished me because I kept zoning out and eventually I just gave up. It wasn't a hard test, I'm just stupid and apparently, now this is just heresy but apparently the test was made using chat gpt... now you didn't hear this from me, if anyone asks, you heard it through the wire... but I can tell! There are some egregious errors that no English speaking human would make. Like stuff you say aloud and you can tell it's wrong. 

Finished Dorian Gray yesterday! Very good book! I gave it 5 stars. My bias towards classics is showing! I loved it, I was so deeply moved by it! Also, Oscar Wilde is very inspiring to me kind of. I love the way he writes. Its so beautiful. He has this was of describing everything and why am I talking like he's still alive. Like most of the author's I read, he's long dead. Damn though, he was a genius. Anyway, I loved the book. I felt really bad for a certain character because I know someone who acts like that and the idea of him meeting a similar fate makes me sad. I haven't spoken to him in a while actually (it's been like 2 days). I had a soft spot for all the characters actually, Dorian of course, it hurt to see him fall into depravity and Lord Henry even because he reminds me of my cousin with his cynicism and my cousin highlighted every word he said. Of course, I relate to Dorian quite a bit, I'll try not to follow in his footsteps though! Highly recommend A Picture of Dorian Gray.

I wanna play guitar again! I always go through these phases but I'm actually gonna try my damndest! I'm gonna start learning a few songs from IGOR and Flower Boy because I like Tyler's little riffs and I was supposed to Starr today but I was so busy. Tomorrow it is! Tomorrow I learn, I forget, I think See You Again and maybe that's a good starting point. I have a lot of musically inclined friends actually and the one piece of advice I got from them was to just pick a song and learn it then pick another song and learn it and do that until your amazing! I wanna practice like Bocch, is there a tutorial for that which doesn't involve holing myself up in my room all day and becoming a shut in... AGAIN! I guess I'll just have to listen to actual musicians instead of the fictional, pink-haired anime musician. I'm gonna ask again maybe. Right now and then see the answers in real time! I actually just took drowsy pills so we gotta hurry up! I still wanna read. 

While we await a response, let's move on. I handed in my art journal! Yipeeeeee! I'm free! I can draw for enjoyment finally! Once again! I'm freed from my shackles. I went in and out and my art teacher still wants something from me but Ill do that later, forget her! I was all dripped out and for what? So I thought why not and i walked to the library just cause. I picked up a book, East of Eden by Steinbeck. I read some of it in the car and it's so good, I wanna read more before I get drowsy! I'll try to finish up!

As I am sick, it is slippery moth tradition to watch Jerma when at home sick. I'm not writing tomorrow and I don't usually watch streams but when I feel under the weather, I like a good jerma stream. I almost never watch streams, I used to watch the Eyepatch Wolf ones back when he first started but as of recent I haven't watched many streams. But everyone has those streams... yk? "I don't watch streams but!" Yk? That's jerma for me! I remember being feverish once, so feverish and I was on YouTube, I put it on my TV and I was shivering in my blankets watching Jerma play Papa's freezeria and the Jerma Hotline Miami stream is one I like to rewatch, I watched it this year and it may have made my mental health better. Im not joking. Which stream am I thinking of watching this time? His elden ring ones. Fromsoft games look beautiful, I usually agree with my friend on everything, we're just that compatible but one day he told me elden ring looked ugly and I disagreed so vehemently because that game looks stunning even as someone who doesn't play games, i can see. I've had a serious craving for a long adventure yk? So I'll burn through the elden ring streams this whole week, I'm at home for the whole week. 

Anyway! Recommendation of the day! I'm gonna recommend some guitar tips from the musicians I know! Nevermind, they said the same thing as the last time. Ummmmmmmm... I recommend Bocchi the rock then. 

Actually, I take it back! I just saw this funny video called Americans who think they're Italian, it's so Sopranos core. Watch it!

Gabagool? Ova here

Okay, good night, I'm tired! I wanna read still!