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dear blog,
recently i had an emergency appointment with my doctor, thankfully she was kind enough to take time out of her weekend to see me for an hour. we spoke alot about my feelings and symptoms and she prescribed me Propranolol and Sertraline instead to help with my side effects and symptoms of anxiety. the propranolol is supposed to help my physical symptoms mostly so i can go outside again, whereas the sertraline is supposed to help anxiety and OCD, i dont have ocd but i have obsessive tendencies so its supposed to help me with that. i reaaally hope this medication works out for me. in the past few weeks i've been taking lots of different pills and tablets and sometimes its hard to keep track of it, but thankfully my mama has a notebook where she documents everything that happens to me
i also went on my computer for the first time in weeks, and i rearranged my setup so now everything is comfier and easier to use!
i feel really bad for my parents, because of my treatment they have to work harder and sometimes my mama cries because how bad my condition is, i wish i could be better quickly so i dont need to see my parents stressed, but i know they still smile for me and surprise me with nice foods to try and make my days better. i really love them so much. i love my cats too, and they're always there for me in the morning when i wake up from nightmares so i dont panic as much anymore, my family is so amazing <3 i feel really grateful
peace, love, and healing
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Bo ౨ৎ
You’re so sweet
Fox • Fox✰star
I’m so glad to hear about things looking up for you kiddo! I think for about the last week you’ve been really in a really sweet & energetic mood and it’s been making me super happy to see you starting to get your groove back.
I know how it feels to think of yourself as being a burden to your family but it sounds to me like your parents are really dedicated to loving & supporting You and that is SO the best feeling in the world, so PLEASE I think you should try to cherish that and feel grateful instead of guilty.
Big hugs coming your way always 💜
im trying to ignore the feelings of guilt and shame <3 i think having my room redone has also significantly boosted my mood and made a new Safe Space for me which is le epic!!!!!!
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Zephi
As someone who's been diagnosed with several anxiety disorders since I was a wee lad, propranolol has really helped me (especially through school and panic inducing nightmares)
I hope it can do the same for you !!
And trust me when I say that your family wants what's best for you
im super glad to hear that its helped you!! i have still yet to feel the effects of the medication but im hoping all is good :))))
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