Day 135 of getting sick even though i took every precaution to avoid it...smh...shaking my h

Feel much better than yesterday! Yipeeeeee! Well, mentally. Physically... different story...

• Flag which is making me blue!
• Cough cough... I'm sick!
• Another day is another drawing!
• Guys, brawlstars is good!
• IM FUCKING TIRED OF ALL THE PERKS!
• Recommendation of the day!

I'm almost done with Blue Flag, I finish it tomorrow... maybe, maybe not, depends.. but I'm surprised at how quickly this is going. It's really good and really tense. I don't know how they do it but they manage to make high-school drama so interesting. More interesting than my own high-school drama. I think I've also been reading it at the perfect time, that same era of confusion where people don't know what they're gonna study and all that, you know how it is! That's also what the characters are feeling and there's a lot of tension too! Can't everyone get along! So much conflict but I love that because it shows that sometimes conflict is necessary to break the tension like the scene with The gamer girl and a few of the main characters at this pancake place, amazing sequence! I loved it and the extra chapter about that scene was also so funny, such a great manga. Im enjoying it so far, it just needs to stick the landing! 

I thought I was gonna make it in the end. I thought I'd survive but no, I'm sick and it's not even my fault! I took all the precautions and I showed no sign or symptom but then everyone else in my house got sick and then I caught it. It's the worst to get sick during exams, even though It's Saturday, I still felt the effects, I couldn't study effectively, I was just tired. Day ruined! I didn't get to study titration! IM COOKED! And I need to hand in my journal... UGGHHHHHH. Anyway, it's gonna be worse on Monday when I write chemistry and im coughing and sniffing. I hate coughing during an exam, it always comes at the worst times! It's dead quiet and you feel a cough brewing in your lungs. How terrible! 

I drew some more today. Maybe I should start posting them or nah. I'm lazy. Ugghhhhh, I'm not in the mood. Leave me alone! Sorry, chat I'm irritable, I'll share my drawings... sometime... but like I don't feel like going to an image hosting site rn. I barely felt like doing this but consistency is key! But I'm no kingdom hearts player. I think I drew fine. I drew better yesterday but it was fine today, not bad. 

Okay! I've actually been waiting for this one. Brawlstars is good! It's so good! Why is this mobile game so fun?? Im gonna play some after I write this blog. It's not pay to win, it's actually fair and the gameplay is fun. Like it feels good to play. I joined the club that CLAIRE forced me to join. IM IN! I haven't actually played any games with them, I'm still grinding. Let's do some math, they have about let's say... 1200 trophies, around there and I have... 400.. 500 around there, I usually amass 200 every day so I'd only need to play for 4 days to get caught up, not that I care, it's fun. Sometimes you get teamed with literal children who have not read Book of 5 Rings by Miyamoto Musashi and so they don't know how to strategize and we end up losing. But most times, it's fine! I love the game! One of the only mobile games I'm giving my time these days. 

Chat, I'm tired. Physically and mentally. I'm reaching that time where I'm getting irritable again. Everyone is sick so everyone is at home these days and I feel like I've got no breathing room anymore. I'll manage! They'll go back to work and I'll go to school, it's not even like I can stay away from school, I just need to go. These days, it feels like everyone only wants to talk about my eating habits. That gets on my nerves. Tell me to do chores? Fine that's fine. Tell me to study? Don't need to I'm already on it. Talk about my eating habits? That's a pet peeve. I eat well! I have been! It feels demeaning kind of. Not demeaning but... I can't think of the word, it feels like it's cheapening the progress I've made. I've said this before but I struggled with eating properly for a while. I've finally reached a point where I eat 3 meals and now my family is like "that's not enough, EAT MORE" how do they know?? I'm so annoyed. I can't even. I'm trying my damndest to just eat three meals and that's already such an embarrassing problem, like I feel so juvenile because I struggle to eat properly and then my family makes it worse by constantly telling me to eat more. Discouraging! That's the word, i feel discouraged! It's having an adverse effect. It makes me want to eat less when they tell me to eat more. It feels stupid to complain about this but whatever, man, it's even stupider to not talk about this stuff. I guess. I'm not depressed or anything but I know a lot of people who have depression struggle to do menial tasks and like it's important to shed light on those symptoms too, im not the right person to say this but I do think that it should be normalized. Well maybe not encouraged but you know sometimes, it's okay to not do things like brushing teeth, showering, eating, you should of course try to but there are days like that and that's fine. The road to healing is a long one...

I didn't really want to recommend this but I feel it ties in with the previous segment. The reason why is because it's from a game I've never played and I hate being that guy who talks about something they've never played. The game is disco Elysium and listen! I own the game! I own it! I can't get it to run but mark my fucking words, I'm gonna make it work! Somehow! If not.... I've got a backup plan... Anyway, my YouTube feed is full of random ass game videos and also motivational stuff which is always hit or miss. You only really find something good there once in a blue moon and this is one of those times. So, my recommendation of the day is this video! 

Inspirational video that comes from disco Elysium, yes! I live under and I didn't read the title properly, okay? Im a little daft, bear with me here

I sent it in a server I'm in, thinking, "maybe they'll find this encouraging since morale has been low" and then guess who? Guess who? Fucking Claire says it's from disco Elysium. She always wants me to draw Harry... Harrier... Harier... Harper... Horatio... whatever his name is. His name is the easier one to spell but I can't get it. I can spell the other guy's name, Kim Kitsuragi because Claire is obsessed with him. Anyway, watch the video! 

Good night chat, I'll try get a bulletin out but I'll sleep before then, so actually good night! Have a good rest and thanks for reading!