him yet again

hes so beautiful. i get why he’s so nice to me, why he compliments me to much or why he thinks im so good. 3 words slipping off my fingers and onto the screen. i’m so stupid. i read his blogs about me and i cry. he mentions me so much, talks about how he loves me. i dont know if he thinks i can’t tell, but i can. i know they’re about me, and i makes me want to sob my eyes out. i thought i was self absorbed. that i wasn’t as careful or or caring as he says. i’m just so confused i think i love him, theres not even a bone in my body that dislikes him. 

i can’t believe i still said it though. and i fell asleep right after? god im such an idiot.

- Love, River<3