Day 127 of having infinite wealth

Oh boy! This was a productive day! Also a good day! I got a lot done and it felt very lived. I don't know, I feel good. 

• Set ups and the city!
• OHHHHHHH DOOOOORRRRIIIAANNN!
• Study update! 
• I'm back.... BACK IN THE SADDLE AGAIN!
• I want infinite wealth!!
• Odd recommendation but hear me out!

Normally I would save this sort of thing for fourth headline. I love clickbaiting you guys, you see a headline that has something to do with my love life and I put it at the veeerrrrryyyyy end. But I forgot to mention this even though I should've so since I forgot, I feel I should put it first. So, in the show Sex and The City, there was one episode where the main character gets set up by a married couple because she's single and it's kind of a dick move to do that when someone is comfortable being single or happy and not looking but I AM LOOKING! My senior dance is in 4 months! 4 MONTHS??? I need a girlfriend! My worry has once again held me in inaction just like Hamlet and I've done nothing about it despite having the necessity. My mom suggested that I take this girl I used to hang out with a lot but I don't know, I don't like her. I don't exactly feel like getting into why, it was something that in recent times, I've come to realize was very wrong and terrible of her and it sounds so petty to bring something like that up now but I don't exactly trust her. I kinda wanna keep her at arms length if that makes sense, if I take her, i don't want her to get the wrong idea and think we're close. I sound like such a dick but like I feel icky around her sometimes, like I don't feel good and this is supposed to be a fun night. Let's leave it there, i told my mom that I wouldn't be too eager to take her and she said she'd set me up with a girl. She then asked me various questions and I answered "it doesn't matter" to almost all of them because I don't have a preference. I know, I know, the whole older woman bit but i really don't have a preference. In this particular instance I'd want her to be talkative because with me there's a sort of heap in terms to my trust. Think of me like a really difficult boss in a video game, you gotta do chip damage to my walls of distrust and it's long, it's strenuous, you have to put in a shit ton of effort but once that's done, I feel safe and i start reciprocating effort. So, if she's talkative, she's gonna be talking all night and then at some point in the evening that wall will break and I'll feel relaxed and start talking more. That's kinda bad now that I think about it. Damn. Dude, put effort into your blooming friendships. Anyway, my mom better set me up asap, I only have 4 months. Gasp!! We can do the Pulp Fiction dance!

It's been a while! It has been a long while since we spoke of Dorian Gray! I picked up the book again after a long while and the chapter I read or, rather, the 20 pages or so I read was and this is an odd description but I'm not sure what else to say about it but it's just Dorian's hyperfixations. Like I'm not kidding, the book goes at length like in the past few years, Dorian became obsessed with one book and read it over and over again and has multiple copies and he feels that he relates to the main character. What a fucking nerd, heh, I would never have that sort of relationship to a work of literature! Nope! Not even a Shakespeare play revolving around a Danish prince! But it also goes in depth about his fascination with music and how he steps out of main stream stuff and starts listening to more eclectic and out there stuff and like the modern day equivalent is gay teen finds out about the /mu/ core chart. That definitely isn't relatable... totally not how i found one of my favorite bands ever... definitely not! All the music on there is shit, especially those weird Death Grip guys, no, no, I prefer Parry Gripp. Then Dorian become obsessed with crystals, he's a crystal girl. That's so funny. But like to the extreme. The modern equivalent to this is having a steven universe phase which I DIDNT! It's not like I watched that episode with Lapis Lazuli's first appearance every Friday for an entire year, that's embarrassing, it's not like I cried to that episode and I'm getting emotional typing this joke because I'm thinking about it, naahhhh! Also he mentions CALIGULA, that's the most relatable part of the entire chapter. Aside from the self reports, I feel like writing this long, elaborate, terrible, ironic joke our has helped me to appreciate this chapter more. It really shows how Dorian changed since discovering the secret of the painting, how he has cast it out of his mind to the point where he can enjoy such arbitrary pleasures but also he still worries about it at times, he's paranoid, he can't completely sever his ugliness from himself. Is that better or worse? I mean, do you think you'd want to live with your vices, it's apart of you or would you have it separated from you but you can see how your vices would've corrupted you as you commit them? Me personally, I like it how it is right now. To be constantly reminded of my mistakes would be a special kind of torture. I also read some Angela Davis. 

Update, chat! Update! I'm so happy and one of the reasons for this is that I finished my work that i set out for myself. It wasn't a lot and I set aside the same amount of work for myself every day so I was surprised and then I found that I finished my work for the exam. Now, tomorrow, I only need to do revision work, practice test and all that. I'm gonna try to apply what I learnt. That's a whole day free for revision, wild. I've actually become a lot more productive with this blog and everything and I don't think I'd people to be that productive without you guys! The readers for encouraging me, without your kind words, I would've ended this 100 days prior. Thank you, im gonna pass my maths exam because of you guys!

I started writing reviews again! I missed it. I don't feel like talking about this at length actually for the simple reason of, I had to write some sort of a statement for my publication where i post all my reviews kinda saying where I've been and everything and the type of output I'll be producing. It feels good to write again. I feel like Walter white. READER, READER! WE GOTTA WRITE! YOO, MISTA MOTH, THIS IS ART, BITCH, THIS IS THE BEST REVIEW IVE EVER READ! I did it for me, Skylar... I was good at it... I liked it... heh (baby blue plays). Someone make breaking bad but it's just me living a double life as a writer. 

"I found this at the publishing office, S.M... who you think that is? Steve Martin? Sam Mendes? Super Mario? ...Slip_moth..." 

"Heh, you got me"

I've never played a yakuza game but I've heard the music and i thought that was enough to watch this video essay on it. I was a little out of the loop but I watched a video essay on the infinite wealth game by Leadhead and at the start I was like thinking what I'd do with infinite wealth. Isn't that a nice concept. That wasn't exactly the conclusion though. Miss, Penelope Leadhead came to the conclusion that the infinite wealth was literally the friends we made along the way in the sense that this one character, I think his name is Ichiban, while he does have infinite wealth, he also has a heart with infinite love to give to his friends. Like isn't that wholesome?? The infinite wealth was the love! Watch that video. I wanted to say that at points, I wish I had infinite wealth to give my friends, like I enjoy making them feel good. I'm George in that episode of Seinfeld where he wins money and treats his friends but people are lovely! I love humanity! What's with me??? I'm either a cornball or I'm a misanthropsist! Pick a lane! Anyway, that video inspired me to give away some of my infinite wealth as much as I can. I do still wish I was rich and had infinite money.

Recommendation of the day! This one's so odd but wolf with me here! I hope someone got that reference. It's a fancam... it barely has any views or should i say wolfly has any views but it's it's good! It's a fancam of General Zhao from avatar and I think this person has the hots for general Zhao. It's actually so good. I used to make edits for tiktok so I can say, it's good! It's also so funny, I love it. I saved it to my favorite videos playlist. Go watch it now! Here I'll link it...

General Zhao fancam