Love

Can you believe I never fell in love?

Like, I find some girl pretty here and there but to this day I have yet to feel love for a girl.

Part of it is probably because I lack social skills so I don't get to actually interact with girls very often, even more now that I am out of school and isolated home once again.

I have a friend girl in my last friend circle, we used to get along a bit more than with the others, probably because she has TDAH and she was quiet, like the rest, everyone was shy...this means almost nobody talked but anyway, I never felt anything for her either, nothing, 0.

And we were almost always talking, but nothing ever sparked.

I don't really know about online dating either though...

I mean I DO can communite a bit better online than in real life...

But I don't know how to keep a relationship going for God knows how long...

Besides, I think I'd prefer being able to actually being there with the girl, but if I'd actually got to get into an online relationship that makes me happy and I do not screw happy, I guess I wouldn't complain.

And to be honest? The thought of dating kind of scares me, idk, I just don't feel like I am ready for this kind of responsibility...

But at the same time...I don't want to die alone.