(Vent, sorta) Time is scary

i just realised i havent actually done a diary entry on here in a bit, which i probably should do. 

sometimes, i think i hear the voice of my future self telling me things. its probably just me trying to calm myself down, but i like to think it is them. when i imagine my future self, i just imagine a figure thats 2x taller than me and has this kind of bright affect over their face. its hard to really comprehend, but the point is you just cant see my face. they come in in bad moments, saying vauge stuff like "you have to take your own path" and other stuff. but recently, i was really sad because i didnt know how my life was going to be 3 1/2 years from now, and i wanted my future self to tell me it would be fine. suddenly, in my head i heard "oh, my little star..".

they said it almost sadly, sympathetically. but i hope that they were sad for the way they once felt, rather than being sad for the fact they still feel that way. god, i hope that ill be able to tell myself everything will be okay then.