23/04-8/05/24 - 【初音ミク】 細菌汚染 - Bacterial Contamination - 【3DPV】#骸音シーエ #シーエ @calciu_bot by deino3330

I didn't know my friend would prevent me THAT MUCH from being on my computer alone for a couple of minute to continue my blogs here... But at least I continued my work out everyday, excepted from thursday 03/05 until today... I'm not proud of myself at all, but I returned at my family's house and got a snap back to the reality going on here, which (as everytime) doesn't fail to make me relapse in depression and suicidal states due to it being extremely hard not repeat the same destructive and horrible bad habits I always had here. It looks like the stable and, a minimum pleasant, habits I started to build there with my friend are gone away when I come back here in this house.
Good news is that I will have, ( ofc if my mental doesn't prevent me from doing so) more time to get to work out back today and some of the next days that will come. Second good news is that I indeed lost 2 to 3kg during these weeks. It's not much, but it gives hope, and my efforts show results, which is more encouraging than nothing, even though I know it's not enough at all yet. I don't see much of physical change yet, if not at all, so I should not count this as a relieving point, but more of a beginning.
So, yeah... I feel exhausted mentally. But I have to continue.