City

Unnoticing concrete, floor hit by reflections of fluorescent streetlamps

They burn bright 

And replace the light of god 

Who forgot this dark corner of the universe 

Nausea comes in 

And vomit would resemble stale granite tiles under my feet

Ants of metal, gears of flesh

Never stopping, never letting the looming black of the sky finally fall like a never coming quiet curtain over this perfectly clean cut chaos of a stage 

Catching words I'll never follow, cutting like air left by speeding cars

Catching laughs I'll never know 

Waiting for chance to get back to what I call home, distances in the map piercing like barbed wire, leaving me for dead, to bleed out 

I could cry, and nobody would notice 

Crimson would darken sidewalks, unremarkable just like old chewing gums 

Summer starts in a month, yet this metromaze will always be, feel, cold

And I realize there's nobody to call, nowhere to have a warm dinner at 

Not one soul to keep at the phone, to stop this wait from driving me insane 

To me this place is just ants and gears. And to this place I'm nothing.

No one will come to stop the bleeding 

The city eats and spits you out, and the chewing continues 

I bit and left scars 

I hurt like this brick sea does 

I don't know why I did it but I got no excuse 

So how can I blame this place for doing the same ? 

It does it for fun, or a side effect, an afterthought of its existence 

I breath out CO2

It breaths out smog and drained corpses 

I hurt knowingly 

It does it without caring 

Hurting left me alone 

In this asphalt machinima 

There's no Deus ex machina 

No god to comfort my last moments 

Looking up at halflit buildings, my personal angels, reminding me I'm insignificant 

Just a part of this city life, divinely forgotten, a cult like whisper orders everyone "don't stop" 

The movie trope goes "I had nowhere else to go" 

And as I cough up red and bits of soul for the last time, 

I find out I have no one to say it to 

Thank you city, for reminding me I'm alone 

I'm dead, yet my legs keep on moving

I was murdered, yet I'm breathing faster and faster 

No blood was left and yet my heart is pumping something, so strongly it's killing me from pain alone 

And I find out when this monster spits you out, it doesn't kill you 

Merely gives a lesson 

Tall skyscrapers starts to resemble a gothic church 

And I realize this is the fluorescent lit corner of an evil god