alone.

i feel so alone. i have plenty of friends who would talk to me, friends who would listen to me vent and friends who would try to help me but none of them would understand. since 2024 started ive felt dazed and scared, as if im being watched and as if im not me. the only thing thats keeping me from falling apart completely is the song army dreamers by kate bush. ive been looping it for the past 6 hours today. i looped it for almost 8 yesterday, and 8 hours the day before. i feel alone.