lying in bed, falling in love (dreaming of a romance that will never be true)

I like to lie in bed and daydream (to my girlish songs) about a fantasy that will never come true. like falling for a man who will never want me or yearning for someone that isn't real. 

I often think that i can't be in a relationship or its impossible for a man to be attracted to me romantically (let alone sexually)

so i dream about my love for someone without considering that they might feel the same for me because i believe it can't be true. but i feel like its a problem for other people then me.

I'm a lover girl. i want to be in a air conditioned room at noon in the mid summer, bed sheets covered in satin. pjs clean and fresh, laying in my bed dreaming of loving someone but never considering someone to also love me. 

i guess a girl just likes to dream .