i had such a peaceful dream last night

it was kind of fever dreamy and hard to remember, but here's the parts i do remember.

i think the dream was based off an old memory from years ago, before i went thru puberty. i was at my grandmas house during the summer holidays, my grandmas set up a plastic swimming pool that was shaped to look like a shell. my cousin had put on her frilly swimming bathers and messed around in the pool and the sprinklers, when i had an expert idea. i grabbed my swimming shorts and just put those on and came out. my cousin and grandmas stared at me super shocked, but i hadnt... ya know... DEVELOPED, so they just said "welp, shes a tomboy" and let me play in the pool with nothing but shorts on. thats a pretty important core memory for me, since im a trans boy now. 

the dream started the same. i think i was a little bit older, and i just had shorts on. it felt uncomfortable, but there wasnt anything there so... it didnt matter. i jumped in the pool, and it transformed. there was coral and underwater sea creatures the deeper and swam. it felt so freeing. i even had long hair, which i used to have when i did swimming. my swimming teachers always told me to keep it tied, but i had just let it go all out. i think there was a computer pc set up in the corner of the pool as well... for some reason. i think i made convo with other human people who were swimming around also. it was weird, but for the most part it was calming.

i like dreams like that! i wish i could have more of those, and more dreams like that that actually make SENSE. and it would be nice to have funny dreams as well.