fall asleep and (dont) dream of this

you dont love me, you love the part of me thats like you. what you dont know is that im really just a liar, that it all slips through my teeth before it goes to my head and the words are sharp enough to make my lips bleed. red and true blue. i dont mean to not mean it, you know that. im no better than that. hurricane boy and broken songbird. i wish it would stop hurting like i have it when i dont. ringtones, clocks. its all just waiting up. set it early and watch it tick. wait for a call thats never gonna come. i never learned how to sound like i mean it when i say sorry.

not a trick or a treat, something closer to novocaine. xo.