Work crush

Okay so I'm currently at work so I'm gonna try to make this short, but last night I had a dream of my work crush and it's making me go clinically insane. Context: I've had a light crush on his guy for over a year, at least that's how it started it. I don't see him every day so that's why it felt "okay" to have a crush on someone from work, but then it progressed to over analyzing every interaction I had with him and deluding myself into thinking he might like me as well. But then I realize that we don't even see each other often and we only engage in small talk, and I don't know shit about him and vice versa. Plus, he's a very talkative, sweet person who's just all in all a good guy. And that's what drives me crazy about this guy. My past crushes have always been the "qUiTe, MyStErIoUs BaD bOy" who are only nice to me so it's very obvious when they like me back. But he's not like that a lot. He's such a gentleman and so sweet and charming and everyone likes him because of it. And if he's this endearing and outgoing on the surface, I can't help this feeling inside me of wanting to know more about him. And now we're here. My crush on this guy has become... real. Which is embarrassing because I literally don't know this guy. All I know is he has sisters, he promoted to manager, he likes poetry and self-help books... that's it. Knowing that made me like him even more, and my mind has just been about him (That's not entirely true, but you get the point). Falling asleep has been easier for me, I've been feeling more motivated, I've been trying to make more plans to go out, all in the effort of whenever I see him again, we'll have more to talk about. (Again, a bit of an exaggeration, but you get it) It makes me feel like a psychopath. Why is this guy that I run into every once in a while at work, taking up this much space in my head? So much space, that he's in my fucking dreams. 

The dream was I had people over at my house and naturally he went, and once everyone left, he stayed. I was cleaning around the house, he sat on the couch and said "You can relax. Can I hug you? I want to be close to you." I felt my face burning and thought "No way this is real," and then I got so excited and woke up. Once I woke up, my heart felt heavy, and I felt so sad and weirdly flustered (?). I wish it was real. 

I made a promise to myself that whenever I see him again, I am going to give him my number/ask for his number. I don't want this to be another crush where I daydream about the person and admire them from afar and do no effort of getting to know them and wait for the feeling to go away and then regret it at the end. Even if nothing comes from it, I just want to be someone in his life. I want to know more about him. He could be the best person I've met and be happy to have him as a friend, or he could be a jackass and my feelings for him disappear but at least I got to know him. I just want to know more about him. I can't shake this feeling off.