UGH

so the eclipse happened.

were still here! (duh) 

i took 4 days off around the time the eclipse happened and im glad i did. i was seriously getting overworked ad stressed. i just feel like no matter what i do its never good enough. i always feel isolated. i applied for multiple jobs during one of my shifts.

i never followed up bc...idk. im miserable no matter what job i have. so what do i do?

but i literally keep thinking to myself why tf am i sitting here miserable with shitty pay when i can be miserable and isolated with better pay?????????? i should just buckle down and find a new job i guess. 

i love my co workers so much. but i just dont feel like im apart of them. sometimes i really feel connected and i feel like i belong there. then i see my check and my schedule. and my pay.

4/13/24