WHY?¿/what's the point

I'm backkkkkk😝. 

I've realized that I'M DONE TRYING. I realized that I messed up, and I wish I can take it back. I've made some dumbass mistakes, and I'm trying my hardest to make it right and give them space. I've changed myself, not only for myself but for them as well, and I still love, cherish, and appreciate them so much, but I'm done. Throughout my process of getting better and being better, I started to feel disappointed, sad, angry, bad, and down on myself because of them. I felt like I lost them forever and I can't do anything right to make it right, but now I realize why care. I understand and acknowledge my wrongs, and I'm truly trying my best to change, but if they can't accept my apologies and acknowledge my changes, then that's on them, NOT ME. I'M TIRED OF FEELING SORRY AND DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF. I'm changing for the best, I'm doing better, so now it's up to them if we still cool. IT'S UP TO THEM IF THEY CAN ACCEPT ME BACK. If they can't be love me or be cool with me anymore, then that's fine, I wouldn't like it but I can respect it. But if that is the case then SAY THAT. DON'T TELL ME WE COOL AND FORGIVE ME BUT DON'T ACT LIKE IT. I still love y'all tho💜💜💜💜.

P.S. thank u Khalil, Kayla, and Kelsey for helping me realize this.

BYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE 💜💚💙❤️🖤🤍🧡💛🤎💘💝💖💗💓💞💕❤️‍🩹