17| i was quite literally the main character for a moment

I've been here for 56 days.

56 Days full of experiences

I've done a lot of things I never expected but one thing that stands out is the last time i went clubbing

I went to this club called Zen this past weekend. at about midnight clubs convert their pool tables to little dancing stages for people to stand on and dance. We had just gotten there at midnight and after getting a few shots, one of the club staff looked at me and my group and told us to get up on the pool table to dance. Nobody wanted to do it but I'm now realizing that most of the girls i went with were clubbing for the first time so they probably felt weird. I decided I'd go up alone.

I was dancing on an elevated platform in the middle of a nightclub in south korea on a saturday night and everyone was fucking cheering for me. I felt a bit nervous and tried to get my friends to join me but nobody would for a while, so I just danced alone. 

I wasnt thinking about this but when I was growing up and playing with my imaginary friends (not even that long ago lets be real) I would play some version of myself that wasn't real. If i was listening to music I would pretend to be in a nightclub and be the center of attention with everyone cheering me on. It's so weird to think about it in this way but I just lived out one of my childhood dreams this past weekend.

Eventually this sweet but very drunk Korean girl joined me and soon others. we were dancing on the table, lipsyncing in each others' faces, and overall just having our moments. Some guy ended up dancing with me and we ended up making out but that is not important nor something I am proud of because I always come to regret it. I just like the attention (and the feeling of his hands on my hips omg...AND he said i tasted good wtf).

I talk about drinking and clubbing alot on here because its something that I never thought I would be doing. I get this cognitive dissonance because I was raised in a strict alcohol-free Christian household. I dont feel guilty though. If clubbing is what makes me happy then I'm going to do it. I found something that I can only enjoy for a limited amount of time as a college kid in a foreign country so I feel like I have to make the most of it. I will post about my actual travels soon