day 12

I can already tell that I'm going to want to feel bad about myself today, so I'm proactively trying to intercept that.

It's 12:47pm, I woke up about an hour ago. Currently I am in bed, I have my coffee and I just finished my NYT games. The spelling bee I never finish, but I got to "nice." I got wordle in four, did connections perfectly and my order was; green, purple, yellow, blue. Finished the mini in 52 seconds. It may not mean much but that's something I do every day, I did it today, and I did it well. 

It's my only day off this week, I'll be going home for my cousins birthday dinner in about an hour. Normally I'd use a day off to clean my room, workout, shower, paint, do something. Today will not be like that though, because today I will rest. I have been working hard and my body deserves to slow down. Even though I still desperately want to do some spring cleaning, it can wait. There will always be time to do the things we do or don't enjoy, but right now I will not be doing anything.

This is how I'm giving myself grace. I am having patience with myself because I know I've been going through a lot, and it's exhausting. In order to keep doing the things on my list, or start that new painting, or go out dancing with my friends, I must first rest so that I have the energy to do so. It's what comes before a reset. Your phone needs to be off before you turn it back on again when you're trying to fix a problem.

So today will be lazy and sloth-like, and  that's okay.