It was a night of tossing and turning for me. Not necessarily sleepless, but dreamless, the kind of sleep where you assume by waking that you had fallen asleep at some point but it didn't feel restful. I came back from the bathroom feeling awake, but my eyes still heavy as lead while my mind was ready to start the day. I kissed my lover next to me. We kissed softly and sweetly, our tongues pressin... » Continue Reading
Highkey flopping. Something about life has been restless recently- anxious, eagar. I cannot write everyday when the days seem to move in a blur of boredom and waiting, but busy as I try to fill them with something meaningful. I will now write when I am inspired to. It may be here in the morning or at the end of the day. Or it may be sporadically whenever the mood hits me, in which case I will writ... » Continue Reading
Lowkey flopping and forgot to publish yesterday because I posted the first day yesterday even though it's the second day and here I find myself again lol. had most of the day to myself, which i really miss. i love my roommates and friends and my boyfriend but i would love some absolute solitude for like a solid 48 hours. It really just helps to ground me and i feel like i'm able to be productive i... » Continue Reading
Gonna do writepril again but in August ! I really enjoyed writepril and I want to do the same thing and write every day. I've been feeling really good on my new meds and so I feel like I have the capacity to do this now. Had a good day, got a good night's rest which was very much needed. I have been going to sleep late and waking up not feeling tired, but I know that my body needs more sleep. Work... » Continue Reading
Gonna do writepril again but in August ! I really enjoyed writepril and I want to do the same thing and write every day. I've been feeling really good on my new meds and so I feel like I have the capacity to do this now. Had a good day, got a good night's rest which was very much needed. I have been going to sleep late and waking up not feeling tired, but I know that my body needs more sleep. Work... » Continue Reading
Was gonna do a whole reflection on writepril but honestly im just so effing grateful that kate brought this wonderful practice to my life i have really enjoyed using this space to share my thoughts and feelings. I've been consistent which im proud of and i hope i can continue to be consistent because this was such a great way for me to process all my emotions and shit, even better than journaling.... » Continue Reading
laughed so hard with friends today which i love. i love laughing so much that my stomach hurts and my jaw is sore from smiling. that is pure joy to me. my greatest fear in life is that i'll never have partner that makes me laugh as much as my friends do. well maybe not my greatest fear but u know what i mean. that's important to me. honestly im just scared that my partner will never measure up to... » Continue Reading
Not me falling off the last couple days of writepril ! Anyways party weekend wooo I love having parties and having all my friends in one place where we can all laugh and giggle and be silly. May or may not have had a special guest stay over saturday night.....(i did). my friends roommate and i have crushes on each other teehee so that's fun, we're gonna hang out again this weekend. Sometimes I won... » Continue Reading
so much to do and so much time but i will waste it all away trying to plan what to do because isnt that just the way it goes, just gonna leave this one here for now and edit it later ! Edit: Haii I'm back y'all ! Ended up figuring out the best way to spend my day. Tidied up my room so that's good and I also did a workout yayyy moving my body being healthy and strong ! i know there's other ways to ... » Continue Reading
Just got off the phone with baby kata :) I love talking to my friends. I can hear birds chirping outside and it's so lovely. i can hear the cars on the street too, but somewhere between the traffic i hear just the birds. what a beautiful place to be in. that's where i try to hide and rest, just after the rush, before the next stretch of rubber on concrete. It's not silent, there is so much chatter... » Continue Reading
Feeling excited about the things 2 come... dont know what they are but i just feel like something is about to shift into a positive and new energy. Still feeling okay, a bit tired perhaps but that's okay. I haven't said anything bc i dont wanna jinx it but im 1 day clean from vaping >:) had 2 cigarettes but i cant quit cold turkey i have to wean off somehow and i feel like enjoying a cig or 2 just... » Continue Reading