i shouldn't have done this

sharing my mistakes so you don't make the same one: LEADING GUYS ON

ugh im strangely good at this and i feel so bad about it. i kissed one guy i smoked with but i only did it because i was high. i didn't feel anything. Now i just hooked up with my current smoking buddy and i didn't hate it but i hope he doesn't think i want anything. at least not yet. like i mean i liked kissing him but other than that i don't know much else. I mean i like hanging out with hi he is a great guy but also i want him to seek a relationship with someone else. UGh life is hard and i don't know how this one will end (hopefully good ) ...

IT COULD BE WORSE he could have killed me. good night loll