The Remorse

Damn, usually it takes me months for me to get on here and write about something. I let my experiences and feelings build up then I come on here and write so this is different, but in a good way 💜.

I guess I came on here to say that I'm happy. These last couple of days have been great, I haven't felt that in awhile. I took some advice that people gave me and applied it to myself, and it's TRULY WORKING OUT GOOD☺️💜. I got the chance to reconnect with my old friends, they go to my school, but I didn't really talk to them like that since I wasn't sitting next to them. Me and karsyn aren't dating, but we have established a great open and HONEST connection. I'm very proud of that because it was very hard for me to open up about my feelings. Before I always thought people wouldn't understand my feelings, they would just judge them, or my feelings would become a burden on them. Her and some others helped me realize that they're here for me and they would understand, and they won't judge me. SO I'M THANKFUL FOR THAT.

I also learned that through my situations, everyone made mistakes and fucked up. Although they wasn't as bad as mine and they probably didn't realize it, their mistakes contributed to the outcome as well, but I'm not mad at them. I don't hold any anger/hatred for them because I wouldn't want them to have that for me. Also hate doesn't help anything, and I love, care, and appreciate them too much to hate them. I'm still learning and improving, and I'm hoping that they're doing the same💜.

Overall, this improving shit does hit different, but it's most definitely needed. I really do appreciate the ones that gave advice/wisdom and ways to avoid my mistakes. Not just for the benefit of others, but for MYSELF. I LUV Y'ALL FR💜💜. Still I want to say I'm sorry to the ones I hurt, (*they know how they are*). I love y'all and I wish y'all nothing but the greatest.💜💚💙

Anyways I have birthdays to plan for so a nigga gotta go. LUV💜🌍

(*i still don't why im on here*)