Quick update

Okay so I’m not currently working on any projects, but I have started a new sketchbook with less as much depressing things in it and more of a shitpost draw whatever I want guilty pleasure sketchbook so I’m uploading some of those to tumblr recently but….

For my next project I think it will be voice acted instead of an animatic, maybe something between friends voices or a story I tell about my  friends… but I don’t even have all that friends yet so I guess I will just wing it with my friends that I have right now. I am still grieving and sad as of recently but I have been trying to lock in with my art and remember my roots and these things that inspire ,e that will always be there. I got inspired by some people I love but to have it taken away makes me lose a lot of motivation to draw and whatnot. I am just reminding myself inspired by things that will not go away like music y media and such. Messy ass blog post here and my grammar is not good today but I am not trying to think about this much it’s just supposed to be a quick update regarding my upcoming projects and such.

I’m definitely still upset of all of this aspects of my life that have been ruined, but there is no going back anymore and there is no more waiting for me. I have to get up and dust myself off because I am not going to allow myself to wallow in the past and wish for something I can’t have.  I am allowing myself time to grieve, but I’m also remembering that this has good aspects to it. I find myself asking, how will the far future in my love life look for me? It’s hard to even think about, I don’t even care for all of that stuff now. But I can’t help from wondering, will this be full of newfound love? Or will this be the distant, fairy tale renewal I wish so much for. Who knows, time will tell. I will just ride this hearthurt out until I am okay with myself again. I am getting much much better at being alone, so this is good. I’m slowly getting happier every day, and that grading anxiety feeling, is gone! It’s easy to enjoy myself when I don’t have things to throw up about every day lol! 

All of this to say I am happy. I’m grieving, I’m missing, but I’m happy. Happy with me, just me, alone.

Yes regarding the inspiration aspect of it all, I have been guiding myself to be more motivated by music especially. I have been listening to this band called bright little stars, and I absolutely adore them. I had the chance to see them live at a show and meet them so I will have to save up money for that. I am becoming good friends with a girl a work, and she wants to take me to shows with her and her friends so that sounds good. A good way to meet new people and put myself out there. These shows are not like concerts, there’s more mingling between the band members and the audience, and also there are lounging areas where you can smoke and chat with others. I have been quite excited about it, I think I’ll attend my first show next weekend if I have work off. 

I’ve also found myself inspired by media recently like others’ animations and Rick and Morty and stuff like that. Smiling friends is slowly budging its way back in my interests too, so that is interesting. I adore their method of animation over on smiling friends, it reminds me of (kill me) homestuck flash animations. I think it’s hilarious though this fast paced frame rate confusion.

Okay! This is about it for the update. Be sure to stay tuned over on tumblr, I am mostly active on there because I am not as scared people will see my posts over there. 

Adios amigos 

Xonbix