Journal entry time

Hey guys its me, back at it again with my second journal entry. I'm currently in school and because I forgot to take my meds this morning I'm all kinds of fucked up. I just got back from my trip to Italy after 8 days and I think the jet lag is getting to me tbh. Recently my paranoia and anxiety has been getting worse and I have no fucking idea what t do about it. I keep trying to look up otc meds to help me relax but it keeps telling me to take CBD which I can' legally buy yet so I'm kinda fucked. I've been wanting to get high so bad recently but weed also has little to no effect on me unless I hit a $50 cart and I ain't paying for allat. I have a friend who buys me blunts but I haven't seen her in a while... I miss her tbh. We met in the hospital, she was my first friend there and has gotten me through so much. I'm gonna hit her up to see if she wants to chill with me. Anyway besides that I think my best bet is to try and get fucked up off whatever I can find, so wish me luck with that.